NERVOUS [13 Aug 2006|11:23am] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | CARTEL-HONESTLY ] LATELY IVE BEEN KEEPING BUISY STUDYING MY BOOKS AND PROCEEDURES BECAUSE I HAVE STATE BOARD EXAMS COMING UJP IN 4 DAYS. I FEEL SO NERVOUS ABOUT IT BECAUSE IF I DONT PASS THEN I WONT HAVE A JOB AND THAT WILL SUCK BECAUSE I STILL BE POOR. I WENT TO A SHOW LAST NIGHT AND DID HAIR IN A BATHROOM, AWKWARD IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT. I THINK RIGHT NOW IM GONNA HEAD TO THE BEACH SOON. TODAY I RAN A 6 MINUTE AND 30 SECOND MILE FOR THREE MILES. IM FEELING GOOD AND I CANT WAIT TO FEEL BETTER AFTER BOARDS AND AFTER I GOT A JOB. WISH ME LUCK CAUSE I LEAVE WENSDAY MORNING 1 hybrid moment give me a moment

GARAGE LAND [10 Aug 2006|03:01am] today was a very intresting day for me though nothing happened. i didnt do anything today, as a matter of fact it was extremely boring, but my sister passed her drivers test and got her liscnese. i suppose the boringness of my day is the reason i got to think so much. i relized that i dont need a nice car, or a nice cell phone, a nice bike, etc. there is no reason for all that stuff. for a while i placed so much emphasis in trying to get nice stuff and not just trying to be rad myself without all the fancy do-dads. ive been feeling pretty nervous about my bored test, i hope i pass. i think that i am thinking to much about it. im trying to change my attitude towards life to make it more positive. do more good in my life. i say that i want to fall in love and do this and that yet i do the complete opposite. i am changing my ways, i want to act more gentalmen like. i want to be more compasionate towards people so on and so fourth. give me a moment

CRUSHED TIDES [08 Aug 2006|11:16am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | NOTHING ] today is one of the most difficult days for me. i did something absolutely terrible last night. this event mixed with all the stuff that has been going on lately to me and around me has givin me an awakening, an epiphany, for a change in my life. a drastic change needs to be made because the track that i am on is a downcycle. right now i just feel so junky, i feel so confused, i feel so bad. im so confused how i let myself get like this. i just hope everything can be fixed. today is a new begining to change what i am doing, to right my wrongs, and to make amnds with everyone. this isnt gonna be easy and its not gonna be fast. i hope i can stick threw this and live up to my word. i often say im gonna do something and just never do it. right now i have a hangover :( and a bad conscience on my mind. the day is nice. perhaps that is an ominous sign of good fortune cause lately its been overcast. WISH ME LUCK 3 hybrid moments give me a moment

its been so long [06 Aug 2006|10:58pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | cartel- honestly ] this is my first entry since i graduated from beauty school which is ironic because my last entry was when i was just starting beauty school. i hope to start writing on here again. its awesome to be out of school and awesoem to go back and read all the stuff in my life on here hrew the good and the bad moments. i am at a pivitol point in my life right now where i am waiting to get my liscense and waiting to get my job and poot my life into overdrive. its gonna be nice to have a career and money so im not always broke. i will update with more soon, including my thoughts, pics, and other juicy stuff 4 hybrid moments give me a moment

LONG TIME UPDATE [17 Oct 2005|05:27pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | the beatles- hey jude ] so first off, im happy! i am finally at CHDA (CALIFORNIA HAIR DESIGN ACADEMY) and am working on hair. i finally found something i am good at and LOVE to do. to jessi, happy birthday again. lately ive been a buisy man doing school and work. i need to hang out with katie azn casue i havent in a while. and yeah 5 hybrid moments give me a moment

OK IM GETTING OFF THIS DAMM LONESOME TRAIN [21 Aug 2005|08:04pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | THE DONNA-GET RID OF THAT GIRL ] MY MOM EVEN THINKS I NEED TO GET A GIRLFRIEND, HOW PATHETIC AM I. ANYWAYS. I NEED A GIRL WHO WOULD WRITE ME A SONG LIKE THIS. See that boy he looks so fine But he's got a girlfriend my oh my Go Go Go I'm gonna hit her in the head I'm gonna knock her down I'm gonna drag her by the hair all over town I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl tonight Her hair's so blond and her nails' so long So I put my Mabelines' record on Kill Kill Kill I'm gonna drag her ass down to my car I'm gonna use that Matchlight Mountain Dew crush I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl tonight Everytime i see him hes with she Gonna make her legs all wobbly I can't waite to fracture her teeth Then that boy will be all for me So when we pass her house on the way to school He'll no longer say how she's so cool to me Get rid of that girl Get rid of that girl See that boy he looks so fine But he's got a girlfriend my oh my KILL KILL KILL I'm gonna hit her in the head I'm gonna knock her down I'm gonna drag her by the hair all over town I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl I'm gonna get get get get rid of that girl tonight Get rid of that girl... get rid of that girl.. get rid of that girl! 4 hybrid moments give me a moment

WITH SUMMERS LAST BREATE [19 Aug 2005|10:23am] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | suicide machines- hey ska ] as charles dickes once wrote " it was the best of times, it was the worst of times. it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness." with summer coming to its end i begin to feel sad for all that has happened over these few short months. with those few words by charles dickens, my summer has been summed up. i often ask whats ahead for me with the new school semister starting tomorrow.i often speculate that my summer wouldnt have been such a waste of life if certain events never occured. if this school year was anything like last years, i dont think i will be able to make it. last year was the hardest year of my life! not because of homework, but because of all that had happened to me. but in heinsight, those events made me grow up so fast. i feel i grew more in that one year then in my whole life. in that one year i learned how to love, and how to loose it, i learned what it was to grief over lost love, i learned what it was like being in the real world working at night and going to school during the day. i learned what it was like being a man, and not a child anymore. all those lessons came at prices that were more than i baragained for. i hope when i am an old man looking back at these years that i can say, i did that, and that i had no regrets. im sure no one cares and if you have read this entry i applaud you for giving you my time to hear about my life and my summer. 1 hybrid moment give me a moment

longevity [16 Aug 2005|11:05pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the wallflowers ] so basically ive been lounging around my house, chilling with my friends, and you know just been doing a lot of contemplating lately. i dont have much to say really. things in my life have been a blessing, most in disguise, but im starting to be thankful for everything i have. and because im concentrating on the good aspects, i begin to loose so much focus on the bad things. but none the less, im gonna say this like always. i need off this LONESOME TRAIN. ive also relized by talking to people and stuff that im not so alone on the whole being single subject as i might have thought which is comforting. give me a moment

FIX ME UP GOOD!!!!!!!! [15 Aug 2005|12:04pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | the strokes- soma ] so i had my surgery and i went well, my knee is healing and i am begining to walk on my own. ive been going to the skateparks a lot still even though i cannot bike. went to LA a couple day s ago to film the SD bikers riding at atnies and some other places. i hate to admit it. but im still riding the lonesome train. i think i have found out why being alone bothers me so. the conclusion i arived at is that i dislike it because i have no one to share my victorys with. i have no one to impress everyday. but someday i will find my match. other than that i am doing fine. lately i have been stuck on my computer typing away. basically, typing is all i have because i cannot drive at the moment cause of my surgery and i essentially cannot walk, so unless someone comes and gets me, this is all i have to do. i got a hair cut yesterday, its a fauxhawk and i must admit, it looks awesome, and she blended up my sideburns with my hair, and i like the look a lot. i guess school is starting soon so im gonna need to get all my college books which is a pai standing in line. 3 hybrid moments give me a moment

FINDING A GIRL IN 7 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the impossible? [02 Aug 2005|02:16am] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | white stripes- we are gonna be friends ] CAN YOU HELP ME SPEAD THE WORD AND REPOST THIS BULLETIN AND TELL EVERYONE TO DO THE SAME I BOBBY, AM GOING TO DO THE IMPOSSIBLE AND FIND A GIRL IN SEVEN DAYS. BEFORE MY SURGERY ON THE 8TH OF AUGEST. I NEED EVERYONES HELP, POST THIS IN ALL YOUR BULLETINS. SO HERE IT IS, SEVEN DAYS. http://www.myspace.com/2789094 <- HERE I AM (BOBBY) !! thats right, i will do it. and you ask why? the answer is, because i can!! 2 hybrid moments give me a moment

SURGERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [28 Jul 2005|09:47am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | bright eyes- a perfect sonnet ] so im am going into surgery on the 8th for my knee. i have a benine tumor eating away at my bone. they are going to remove it and fill the lost bone in with graph bone. simple proceedure. i will be on crutches for about 2 months will give me plent of study time. i am also getting my wisdom teeth removed. perhaps when i am all messed up off the drugs i will go get a piercing or something. aside from all that, i just enrolled in college again. hopefully i will do better this year then last because last year was pretty bad, i went threw some really tuff shit making it hard to focus in class. my schedual is gonna look a lot like this: 1st Simester M- 9-5(supercuts) 6-9 american sign language T- 9-5(supercuts) W- 9-5(supercuts) TH-9-5(supercuts) F- 9-5(supercuts) S- REAL ESTATE ALL DAY FOR ONE MONTH( ALL OF SEPTEMBER) SU-FREE i will be taking English 110 and world history online 2nd simester- M- FREE T- 8-5(california hair design academey) 5-8:30(supercuts) W- 8-5(california hair design academey) 5-8:30(supercuts) TH-8-5(california hair design academey) 5-8:30(supercuts) F- 8-5(california hair design academey) 5-8:30(supercuts) S- 8-5(california hair design academey) 5-8:30(supercuts) SU-FREE after i get done with cosmotology school i will still remain in college and get my bachlors in musical theory. so on a more philosophical level. ive been doing just fine, ive kinda givin up on the whole greaser look, its to repetitive and blaz'e. ive been riding a lot and having fun. havent done much other than that. i got a lot of things to do, im selling my old cars and i am going to by something more contemporary because the older cars are becoming increasingly broken. its gonna be hard to give them up because i have had so many memories in them especially in the 55 olds, ive had far to many in that. i might not give them up, will see depending on how things go. thats about it for now. 3 hybrid moments give me a moment

stay gold [22 Jul 2005|11:08pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | AQUABATS ] DOES ANYONE READ MY LJ, I DONT THINK ANYONE DOES? most single people i noticed like to talk about how crappy it is to not have someone to love and hold, i know this because i am often one of these people. i relized today that i am gonna be alone for a while cause i dont know to many women, so i better get used to it and stop thinking about em. any time i try to meet a girl, i end up getting shut down ( hint hint, i suppose im just not cool enough :) ) so ive been in san fransisco for the past couple days, it is an amazing city. not only did i go to san fran but i also visisted many other famous spots around the western coast. 10 hybrid moments give me a moment

DREAMER [16 Jul 2005|12:10pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | don henley- boys of summer ] somewhere in the ambience, somewhere in my mind, the fraulics of a yesterpast still reside. these memeories dont plague me like most people, but i embrace them as the good times and from them i learn. i learn about life and what it means to change and grow by learning from past mistakes. anyways, many months have passed since those memories, yet i wonder why they are always in my mind. perhaps i havent grown from these memories as much as i give myself credit for. i miss how much they mean to me. anyways, that was a long time ago and i need to move on. but then i specualte, if i was givin a second chance, i would do things a lot different. anyways, lots has happened in the past week. i sighned up for ROP cosmotology. met a cool gal named ty, and camped out till 10 am. today was fun at work cause i got to work on hair cause we got swamped.tomarrow im leaving for vocation. i wish something in my life would change cause my life right now feels prety routine. i wish i could find some new kinda kick. 1 hybrid moment give me a moment

OLD PICS [01 Jul 2005|04:58pm] ill post more of em later 11 hybrid moments give me a moment

HERE WE GO [24 Jun 2005|09:53pm] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | fenix tx ] i know i havent updated since the arrest but ive been fine, not particularly great and not particulalry bad, just o k. but anyways, ive been workin and keepin buisy. not to much really going on in my life. i think im going to hootinany on the 1st and 2nd. heres a pic for you all to enjoy. 1 hybrid moment give me a moment

JAIL [14 Jun 2005|05:58pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | elvis- play house ] ok so ive bet you have heard by now about how last night i spent the whole night in jail. now here is the story behind it all. so last night me and the guys went drinking cause a cool cat named adam came down from new york. when i say drinking i mean we had mixed drinks at my house. then after drinking we decided to go walking around and then my friends stupidly come up with the idea to place PVC piping in the road as a car drives by so it would run it over, while they did this adam and i stayed back and watched from a far. then the guys stupidly pull this prank on a cop and the cop chases us for a while. so while evading the cops we run threw a mountain side and then jump my friend laurens fence to get to the street. not much after the cops rolled the street and we all ran and seperated to take different hiding positions. after hiding i see brenton so i jumped out of the backyard where i was hiding and as i was doing so the persons whos backyard i was in chased us with swords and a night stick. after telling the crazy ass guys with the weapons a lie to get out of the sticky situation, i noticed another cop so i hid behind a car, apparently i didnt do a good job cause immediately the cop jumps out screaming and pulling his gun on me. he threw me to the ground and arrested me, brenton, and adam. the cop tryed to come up with a bogous lie that i was trying to steal the car i was hiding behind. after telling the cop that i do not have the resources to steal the car, the cop made fun of me telling me i new nothing about car and just trying t get real tuff with me. so the whole time i was talking to him i pleade silence, and the cop was getting real mad about that. so then he took me to my house where he told my mother a bunch of lies about what we really did and made my mom cry. anyways, he also saw all my cars and changed his mind about my automachanical capabilities. soon after all three of us were hauld to jail where we spent a good 12 house in detoxification. it was extremely horrible and nasty being in there. additionally, the ass hole cops wouldnt give me my medicine though i asked for it repeatedly threw the night. not only did the whole night teach me a good lesson about the state of the system, but it also teaches me about how people are very hipocritical. for example, its alright for me to drink, but right when i get cought by a cop doing it, im suddenly a bad guy with no future ahead of me. anyways, thats about it for that. now on to other business about my life lately, i went to rop at 4 in the morning to sign up for cosmotology, only to find out it is the same date next month, a big pain in the ass. nextly, my bad is playing tomarrow at the el cajon car show. uhh what else, met a cool gal and danced with her at the corvet dinner and got an applause by all the waitresses. 24 hybrid moments give me a moment

LOST BOY [02 Jun 2005|12:15am] [ mood | lost ] [ music | joe clay ducktials- goodbye ] lately ive been sad and i have felt so lost. ive been feeling this for a while, since i graduated from high school, when jessi and i broke up, when i dropped my classes in college, when jenn and i went our seperate ways. ive felt like the bringing of summer adds to this feeling because it serves as a reminder that ive wasted a year of my life trying to find myself, and all ive felt is shame and regret. i dont know what im supposed to do at this crossroads in my life. i have wyotech and cosmotology school, a future to think about, money, women. its been hard these past couple of months, i try to hide it so no one sees the disturbance in my life, even from myself sometimes. i think ever since jessi and i broke up ive been shutting people out who want to get close to me, not my friends but women and stuff. and since jenn and i had our differences ive really shut people down. i find flaws in people, imperfections and i use them in my mind to turn them away and not get close to them. i just keep trying to find a women who never exist, my space girl. and because i do this, its caused great turbulance in my life. ive also noticed that since highschool, i find little time to make from my true frinds, my brothers like brenton and kyle. i often worry myself to much, thinking about what i need to do, and what i need to be. i have such potential to be spectacular, but i dont do anything with it because i feel like if i commit to something, that i wont ever be able to change. like im afriad to be a comotologist or a hot rod builder because im afriad if i choose that route, then ill be doing it my whole life, and i dont know if i want to do that. same with women, im afriad that maybe ill settle with someone, and then because im not single, i wont ever find my perfect women. i guess all these troublsome feelings ive had lately go back to fears of mine that ive had for as long as i can remember, fears of being poor, fears of being alone. i just feel like i dont know what to do, im a lost boy. additionally, ive felt untrue to myself, as ive been trying to get the car club going, and just be all tuff and stuff, cause im not a tuff guy, im a thinker, i use my mind, not my bronze. and to all the people who ive shut out i neeed to say sorry to. i suppose i need to stop thinking and let the chips fall where they may because it is something that takes time and something that only time will tell. sometimes i feel forced to choose my path in life, by people like my dad and grandparents and it makes my life difficult. i really hate having no direction or purpose. 11 hybrid moments give me a moment

ROCKABILLY [29 May 2005|09:38am] [ mood | content ] [ music | joe DUCKTAILS clay ] so my band and i played last night and we made about a $1000.00 . so yay for that, to everyone else who i havent hung out with lately, sorry ive been swampted lately. ive been learning how to cut hair and im learning east side swing dancing right now and its great. anyways, now that im done playing that gig, i have time to hang with my friends so please call me if you wanna chill. well lets ee whatelse, didnt get to go to the river:( i really wanted to go, i feel bad because ive been so buisy ive flaked on brenton a lot this week so im gonna make it up to him somehow. whatelse has been going on, jenn moved to riverside. my friend melody is coming down from palm springs tomarrow to hang with me, its gonna be a blast. what else, rikki is in mexico. uhhhh and everyone else is at the river so im here alone. give me a moment

19 YEARS TO THE DAY [24 May 2005|02:12am] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | johnny cash- falsom prison ] so today was my birthday, im now 19, my b day was alright, i got a lot of text messages and phone calls and i really liked it, but something was missing. i odnt know what it was, but something was plaguing me the whole time. anyways, hope next years is better. and it was aweosme that brent and the whole horror crew threw me the most awesome BBQ party ever, cause ive never had a birthday party before, like for instance, last year, no one even said happy birthday or even did anything to make an effort to agnolge my b day except family of course. anyways, see you all later. but so say what i did today, i woke up early spent the whole day putting a cd player in the ramlber, which still doesnt work. then slept for an hour and had my bbq party then went to my house and smoked hukkah then brent and i drank and went to vhs and then carli gave me a ride home. 9 hybrid moments give me a moment

oh this and that [16 May 2005|12:02pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | social d- sick boy ] not to much is happening over here in my part of the world. went to tio leos to see a rockabilly show, everone was dressed up all super rockabilly, and i was kinda standing out because i dressed like my dirty greaser self. i was wearing rolled up pants, converse, black rolled up t shirt, and a jean jacket with sleeves cut off and colar pushed up. anyways it was alright, then i decided to get a ride with my friends to the tower, and i drank a little there, and played some pool, and then went home and went to sleep. so anyways, i think tomarow is the day i cut the top off the rambler. its gonna be prety fun. 1 hybrid moment give me a moment

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